I ate three bags of microwave popcorn last night.
That’s like two bags too many.
If you have no issues, we cannot be friends.
Am I beating myself up this morning? If I am telling the truth: yes, a little bit.
Does being honest about my behaviors massage my heart back into its rightful place? Yes, it does.
For as long as I can remember, I eat when I’m happy, or sad or breathing. At a young age, I learned to do my “best work” under the cloak of darkness while everyone in my family was asleep. It was just me and the mini Reese's peanut butter cups on an illegal date in the kitchen. I would bury the evidence of my sin in the bottom of the garbage like the opposite of an archeological dig. Then I would pass out in my twin canopy bed. Upon further inspection, I have realized it seems that I like to feel full and then fall asleep, so as to not deal with the too full feeling.
If you cannot relate to any of this, I don’t blame you. But if you can, if you can, my hope for both of us is that we can offer ourselves some pause and grace. Which is the opposite of shame and guilt.
What I am really trying to say is that I think all humans should walk around with yellow tape that says:
BE PATIENT. UNDER CONSTRUCTION.
Will I make a different choice tonight? I’m not making any promises I can’t keep. Am I aware that I can? Absolutely.
My hope is you do too.
Whatever it is, you are not alone.
Pause and grace for the win.
I love you.
I love me.
I love us.
Let this be our unspoken prayer today.
Love,
Michelle
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AND
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This photo was snapped while I was eating a salad and drinking a beer on my birthday. That's what I call a balanced meal.
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